Saturday, November 21, 2009
21/11/2009 0029Hrs



So apparently I haven't been updating for like weeks now. People seem to just forget about me, wanting me to vanish. Afterall who am I to all of you eh? Sorry I take back my 'all', as not everyone wants me to vanish. Because some people actually felt my presence. Unlike some stupid ones, who don't. Pathetic eh?

The past weeks have been pretty simple. On the 10th had a class bbq, arrived late. Around 8 I think, because last minute. I didn't wanna go, then someone pestered me to. Shall not go into details, left at 11 I think. Because it was getting late and didn't wanna get spooked while on the way home. :D Now you know what kind of a scaredy cat I am.

And apparently, these past few days, or weeks perhaps, alot has happened. Someone came knocking, and I had to accept because the past 9 grueling and heartbreaking months were too much for me. I shall not go into details about this particular person who came knocking, but her name starts with the letter A. Only 1 person knows and that person is somewhere, well uhm, in my links. So try asking that person, if you know who that is. :D

Oh and by the way, anyone watched 2012 already? I heard it was amazing, only for the fact that people actually survived doomsday, like WTF?! Are those people like descends of, well. Lets just put them as, Chosen Ones. As certain topics I could not discuss on as it may spark some controversy. I've had enough controversies on my blog, so I had to put a stop to my ways of blogging.

And if you guys are too stupid to read, the title of the song posted above is Crawl by Chris Brown. Yeah that guy who gave Rihanna a bruised face. But I have respect for this guy, after all he made a better comeback compared to Rihanna. Come on, Russian Roulette? WTF is that song? Who listens to it anyway? *Rofl*

The song is dedicated to someone special, who has made my life more meaningful to live. Because I want you to know how stupid and dumb I was for hurting you. Realising my mistakes have matured my mind concept. Made me think that there is room for improvement in me, and that I have made that. And the fact that i still, well, cares for you, never changes alright? So just think of there is someone always supporting you in what ever you choose to do. I wanna wish you the best of luck. Study very hard, or else will drop. Bleargh.

I'm gonna end my most emotional post here. Because yeah, well, I missed starry-starry night just now. Because I didn't want myself soaked with rain water. Bye people. Don't miss me, because someone already does. ;D

N.A 28/10
--angel from your nightmare at 12:01 AM
Monday, November 9, 2009


Nov 9

Guess what, I stayed up till 2 am to watch a Man Utd Vs Chelsea match, and it ended being ruined by the bloody ref. I tell you, I can referee the match better than the pussy. Gee a push which led to a goal is counted? Fuck me. Well maybe the theory of the world ending at 2012 might be real, afterall there are some signs. Like the pussy referee. Shit, if its real, I'm gonna lose my virginity! Yay! Wanna join?

If you wanna spark a argument or even a fight, why would you start in my blog. And don't say my blog is the spark, because I have repeatedly stated that my blog is no way whatsoever related to anyone. Viewing this blog is your problem. And if you're angry, it's not my problem either. Get it? Slow bitches.

Moving on now, apparently if you look to the left, I have updated some information about myself. I am not gonna type out in this entry because it will apparently brew someone's anger. Hey, get a life. People are moving on, and why aren't you? If your chat box appear on my messenger, I can tell you what you told me before. " Kalau tk happy, cakap face to face uh."

And I beg, please please, my bloody blogfan. If you are reading, please tag me once more so that I can laugh for being how dumb you were. For trying to spark a fight. Useless bugger.

I don't even know if I should go to the BBQ tomorrow. It sure will be boring that's for sure, unless it was to be planned by me. (: But sadly, I didn't. Sorry for bringing your hopes up. Who's gonna pay my fares if I go? Gee, it's not like everything is sponsored.

I'll just end here, because I'm sleepy. Thanks ref for making me stay up for a miserable match referee-ed by you,pussy. And by the way, it's only 9:14. Fuck 26 hours and 46 mins left. Grr.
--angel from your nightmare at 8:50 PM
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
3 Nov 2009

8 Days. 8 days every week. Lol, mepek sak aku. Hehe. For those people who cant count, 8 more days till its 11 of Nov. Don't get it? Never mind , you suck. (=

Just realised that in 2 years, it will be 11/11/11. Lol so we can actually see the day before the PREDICTED 2012 Doomsday thing. Don't you guys think it's pretty hilarious? Like when people are trying to cram all the catastrophic things into one day? They say the Mayan calendar ends on that day, so what? They were probably lazy to continue. They probably said, " Heck, by the year 2012 everyone will know how to count. Let them finish their own calendar. I'm tired of doing this shit. " Have you guys ever thought of that? It's quite foolish to be paranoid to think that in 3 years the world will go crumpling down. I mean if its true, lets lose our virginity people! Lol

Enough of donno-how-to-count-past-20-dec-2012 shit. Hehe. Anyone wanna join me on saturday 14/11/2009 at the National Stadium? Lol. Let's watch Singapore Vs Thailand! Shit, aren't we going to lose? Don't waste my time then. Bleh.

I don't know why people are going mad, because of me. Someone apparently was like a kid, wait infact she told people that they werent 'matured'. Very ironic lah this kind of people. She told me this, " WHY MUST YOU BE SO MEAN TO ME!!" And the funniest thing of them all is, " Why must you talk in your blog?" I ROFL-ed when i read that. Gee ask her out also cannot. Want to settle problem face to face? Pfft. That's what they say," Desperate times call for desperate measures" Okay no link right? What the hell.

And to the blog fan, how can someone be a fan of my blog? Isn't my blog cool enough? Why would it need a fan? It's not that hot in here anyway. The only thing that is hot is me. Hehe. Yeah I know it's lame. But what do i care? And don't anyhow accuse people. Before i start telling secrets about you. Change of name doesn't work. Consider a change of ip address girl. (= Be smart, not a smart-alect.

I guess that's all folks. Apparently people are just very,well, stupid. Okay I wanna ask you guys a classic question. " Why did the chicken cross the road? " Answers please write in on my tagboard. Winner gets a post dedicated to him/her. When i said winner, I meant the best answer. Lol-ed. Slow assholes.
--angel from your nightmare at 1:12 PM
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
27 October 2009

Hey fellow dipshits. Thanks for reading my post today. LOL okay was just kidding about the dipshit thing okay? Don't feel hurt.

Wait aren't you people used to being hurt when you come to my blog? Ah yes, in my blog everything is about the real world. No fantasy things, no bullshit, no make up stuff just for the pleasure of myself. *oooh yeah!* So what the fuck am I supposed to post today? You think I'm someone with an idea stucked up my head everytime? I'm not someone who keep feelings bottled up inside me. I usually rant on my blog, so if you don't check back often, what the fuck do you know about me? Hah.

Okay shitbag, I have to be straight for this one time. I just found out that this bloody shitbag have been messaging someone which I have in target. Fuck this shit, but he told me he never. All those decency always has an advantage, and this is it. So you wanna play like this eh shitbag? Fine with me. You could have told me straight in my fucking face right mother fucker? No wonder you're asking me to find someone else. Fucking hell.

To those faint- hearted, sorry for all my vulgars. You've been warned many times though, but you still came here. Shit you.

I realise I haven't been getting alot of tags. To you all fuckers who just come and go, fucking tag lah. It doesn't really take up much of your time. Afterall much of your time are indeed spent on putting your fat and clumsy ass in front of the computer. Or laptop. Or notebook. Whatever.

Why I'm fucking aggresive today? Because i fucking found out that my friend is fucking backstabbing on me. How fucking pissed off would you fucking be if you fucking found out the same fucking thing?

Can I be warned for my language? Sorry then. Bleargh but who cares about my blog anyway?

I got a job at KFC lol. Yeah laugh all you want. Lasted 2 days and was lazy to continue working because the humiliation of working there, I cant take it. Gee, any vacancy for any jobs? I desperately needs one. I'm going to apply for a flight cleaner. It's kinda cool you know.


i know you want a fairytale, but we cannot be twilight.


"Ohhgoshhhh . Im in a dilemmaa . ;D" Arsehole.

--angel from your nightmare at 11:33 PM
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
Heh. It's really weird how people can be really, well, weird. At one point of time she can be really , uhm how should i put this, protective about herself. She can say like," I don't have a boyfriend!!" Yeap she can be that protective. But at another point of time, she can tell me that," I love him uh sial!" Wait who the heck is " HIM?" As in the powerpuff girls' villain? Oh wait, she can in fact say," Who the fuck are you to care?" Haha, thats really horrible. Because in my previous posts, I in fact said something like that. BUT, she was so pissed and quoted my sayings. Yeah and wait, i infact remember what she said. " Recognise these words? " Everytime the chat window opens, she was like all good towards me. So kind, sweet. Those kind. But behind all these, you NEVER know what she can do. Yeah2, ckp la jahat blakang aku. Aku pn bleh.

Guess I'm expecting another message of frustration from here. I think. Ta-Ta
--angel from your nightmare at 4:23 PM
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
Apparently, within hours of my previous post, someone actually read my post and felt insulted. As the saying goes, " Siapa makan cili dialah merasa pedasnya." Thankfully, I didn't actually direct my posts to anyone. As I have said before a couple of times and I ridiculously emphasised that posts on my blog have nothing to do with the living nor dead. Any similarity in characters or attitudes are purely incidental. EXCEPT if i put a name inside the post. Then you can say I directed my post to you. But then I didn't.

But then again, my words could have left some deep impressions of me on you. But I didn't mean to hurt you. I didn't mean what i say and i didn't say what i meant. But what i wanna say is, lupakanlah aku. Because if you have to go on with your life, you have to forget about me eh. That's why i wanna say that.

Anyways, N's are over. Its time to celebrate. *Celebrates* No more school for me. Although there's suppose to be bridging programme which is suppose to start tomorrow, I'm not going. Weee. Gee how random can i get?


Gonna end this post here. Gee very bored. Anyone wanna go for sentosa on friday 16/10/09? 4a1 peeps only. Others are welcome and expenses will be settle by yourself. Nyahaha
--angel from your nightmare at 12:02 PM
Sunday, October 11, 2009
11/10/09





It's been a long time since I was here. I think it might be my last in a few months. Because once N-Level is done, (which is tomorrow) I'm thinking of getting myself a job. And to that someone persuading me to go to Sec 5, I don't think I will be going. Yeah I know you have been trying to get rid of me. And I'm making that happen. (: See how thoughtful of me?

Any part time job opportunities available, please contact me. Desperado. 12/10/09 could be the last day i see you. So if you want to tell me something, better tell it by then. Because contacting you is so hard, harder than a stone. But things that you've done to me will never be wiped away from my memories. Because afterall, you are just playing around with me. And I don't care.

Every time I asked, you gave me the same answer. And yet no progress has been made. Yeah I'm still counting. 6 months passed, still nothing. Well when i went to find someone else, you were so upset with me. And angry as well. I remembered the time I saw you under a block with your friends, and you know why I didn't call out to you? Because I don't bother to ask about you.

Go on, read this blog and cry if you must. Because you will remember that the heart you broke, will forever remain a scar in there.




i fucking miss that hug.
--angel from your nightmare at 8:00 PM